A change for the better?

Well my transformation into the ideal high school student has was neither sudden nor perfect, it was gradual. After years of my father's constant frustration over my grades, It was me who finally became frustrated. I could say that I finally woke up, finally starting to get my hands dirty, I developed strong study habits but most importantly a grasping interest. An interest that has turned into the primary part of my life. Even though, I have always been systematic and methodic, I now have a nearly full-time occupation to apply it to--high school. It was the first glimpse of an "A" that had me hooked to studying and exploring my current high school subjects. By using my methodic studying and systematic time management skills, I have been able to achieve higher than I ever expected. To put it Simply, school has become my addiction. School is probably one of the most positive addictions one could ever have, however my addiction, at times, has be self destructive. So destructive that it has had profound effects towards my personality; I find that balancing the personality that attains me friends, happiness and girls (the care-free, have fun type of personality) does not synchronize very well with my schooling. This is the most frustrating part about success in school. When I look around at the other successful students they are often socially troubled and insecure most likely finding peace-of-mind in their text books. On some level I can relate to this insecure seclusion, life becomes simple once one studies the hardship of the "Great Depression" or the misery faced by the brave soldiers of "World War Two". This retreat is often pleasant and peaceful, yet this alternate shy and intelligent personality contrasts greatly to my old personality, which was focused on getting "laid" and meeting friends. Basically, I have completely change my life-stlye which in turn has altered my personality and my mindset not only on school but on life. I have taken a more drivers-side seat view of life, standing back and trying to understand my life rather than living it care-free. Perhaps the irony to this whole change is that when I was living carelessly I always wanted to understand life now that I have stepped back I understand life but now I want to live it.

Why?

I created this blog to record all my outrageous, interesting, and foolish current thoughts (note I always right in the moment, sometimes out of pleasure other times out of spite). Although this blog will be used to record my thoughts and feelings, I will primarily be using it as a way to improve my writing and punctuation- one can always improve!